Personal Update// Brain Vomit #02
I've not really done a personal update in ages, other than the 50 facts about me thing but that's not really an update.
I'm in my first week back at college now after my auntie Jules's beautiful send off. This proved to be an extremely hard time, easily one of the most emotional and painful things I have ever experienced. Despite this, she got the goodbye she well and truly deserved and it was so lovely to receive such kind words from everyone who turned up to pay their respects and celebrate Jules's life with us. Although it was an emotional time for the family, it brought us closer together and we had a lovely family meal with a bit of fun as Jules's petite, ten year old daughter (my cousin) defeated everyone at an arm wrestle, even George (my brother)!
Being back at college kind of sucks and yet again I'm starting to exert myself and worry more. My mental health is pretty good at the moment although I'm struggling with anxiety and getting agonizing chest pains in stressful situations. I've adjusted my 'atrocious attitude' and put all my efforts into my work which seem to have gone unnoticed which is extremely annoying.
It was also Valentines day on the Saturday just gone, so I spent the weekend with Tom. I was well and truly spoilt to a big box of treats such as a bottle of Jack Daniels, plain crackers and lots of sweets and chocolate. Along with more sentimental gifts like a lovely cushion with a pug on it, a gorgeous photo frame (containing our most recent selfie) and a Parker pen! I was then spoilt further to a lovely lunch at The Ramblers Retreat, Alton and then a walk up this painfully steep cliff. Needless to say, the views were amazing. Among all the beautiful gifts, I'm grateful for having such an amazing guy in my life.
I have my first ever job interview this week too. God, how awful does that sound? I'm 18 and I haven't had a proper job or experienced a formal job interview in all my teenage years. I have been looking for about 18 months and finally noticed by Alton Towers. I'm wanting a career in child care but would like a job where I'm just working for money, learning to budget things and saving it for the expenses of life. And, I'd like to work among people my own age and gain confidence because teenagers scare the living sh*t outta me (if you don't get that reference I'm really disappointed).
I've also had my interview at Buxton College now which was about 4 weeks ago and they have offered me an unconditional place. I've been sneaky and started looking at the course content, teaching myself so I can look smart. I'm going to focus on my academics while at Buxton rather than making friends. It sounds awful but they're all going to be two years younger and I've already flopped my AS levels and wasted my time in a course I haven't really enjoyed, so I'm just going to get through Buxton and head off to Uni.
Other than that, not much has really occurred. Although, I really need some stuff to rant about soon as I'm always getting urges to write and I feel really behind on my blog compared to all my other blogging friends. So if anything is bugging you, even if it's an overexposed song, something in the news, a fashion trend, problems within society or a famous person that's bothering you, anything at all, just message me and I will do my best to have a rant.
I'm in my first week back at college now after my auntie Jules's beautiful send off. This proved to be an extremely hard time, easily one of the most emotional and painful things I have ever experienced. Despite this, she got the goodbye she well and truly deserved and it was so lovely to receive such kind words from everyone who turned up to pay their respects and celebrate Jules's life with us. Although it was an emotional time for the family, it brought us closer together and we had a lovely family meal with a bit of fun as Jules's petite, ten year old daughter (my cousin) defeated everyone at an arm wrestle, even George (my brother)!
Being back at college kind of sucks and yet again I'm starting to exert myself and worry more. My mental health is pretty good at the moment although I'm struggling with anxiety and getting agonizing chest pains in stressful situations. I've adjusted my 'atrocious attitude' and put all my efforts into my work which seem to have gone unnoticed which is extremely annoying.
It was also Valentines day on the Saturday just gone, so I spent the weekend with Tom. I was well and truly spoilt to a big box of treats such as a bottle of Jack Daniels, plain crackers and lots of sweets and chocolate. Along with more sentimental gifts like a lovely cushion with a pug on it, a gorgeous photo frame (containing our most recent selfie) and a Parker pen! I was then spoilt further to a lovely lunch at The Ramblers Retreat, Alton and then a walk up this painfully steep cliff. Needless to say, the views were amazing. Among all the beautiful gifts, I'm grateful for having such an amazing guy in my life.
I have my first ever job interview this week too. God, how awful does that sound? I'm 18 and I haven't had a proper job or experienced a formal job interview in all my teenage years. I have been looking for about 18 months and finally noticed by Alton Towers. I'm wanting a career in child care but would like a job where I'm just working for money, learning to budget things and saving it for the expenses of life. And, I'd like to work among people my own age and gain confidence because teenagers scare the living sh*t outta me (if you don't get that reference I'm really disappointed).
I've also had my interview at Buxton College now which was about 4 weeks ago and they have offered me an unconditional place. I've been sneaky and started looking at the course content, teaching myself so I can look smart. I'm going to focus on my academics while at Buxton rather than making friends. It sounds awful but they're all going to be two years younger and I've already flopped my AS levels and wasted my time in a course I haven't really enjoyed, so I'm just going to get through Buxton and head off to Uni.
Other than that, not much has really occurred. Although, I really need some stuff to rant about soon as I'm always getting urges to write and I feel really behind on my blog compared to all my other blogging friends. So if anything is bugging you, even if it's an overexposed song, something in the news, a fashion trend, problems within society or a famous person that's bothering you, anything at all, just message me and I will do my best to have a rant.
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