A Letter to my Sixteen Year Old Self...
Dear Olivia (spoiler alert, your preferred name will be Grace in 2 years time),
I'm basically just going to be giving you a lot of spoilers and guidelines in this letter, because let's face it, you need them. I am the eighteen year old you, and you need to read and follow every single paragraph in this letter. It will completely change you for the better. It will also give you the life you really deserve.
So, you're going through your GCSE's at the moment and you think your life is over because a load of old money idiots are calling you names, making memes of you and just being down-right nasty. Put the pills down and let me put things into perspective for you. You are not ugly. I look back to you and regret believing all those comments. Your eyes, your hair, your face. None of it is deformed You are a very pretty girl. You also have it in you to get some amazing marks in your GCSE's, despite what you're going through. I can tell you now, if you take that batch of paracetamol and wash them down with that whisky now, they've all won. You don't want that. Because they're nobodies. Yeah, some of them are models, but I see her Instagram photos everyday now and they haven't aged well. Some of them are good sports players, but think how hard it is to jump from a school team to a professional, famous sports team. Not all of them are going to make it. That's not saying you can go into school on your high horse because some of them will get good jobs. But when they get these good jobs, they will no longer be part of your life. You can move on and have pride in yourself for ignoring their snide remarks. Enjoy your life while you can, there's going to be assholes throughout it. Wherever you go, but I don't want you looking back wishing you'd done stuff but you didn't because you were too scared of what people would say or do. That's not how you live. Because believe me I have many regrets from when I was your age. So I'm putting things right now and doing what I want despite what others say...you should do the same. It's a lot easier than you think.
Love and boys is another big thing for you. I bet you're buzzing to start college, making new friends who know nothing about you. A fresh start. Firstly, be very careful who you associate with. Be friends with the 'wolf pack' but be selective when it comes to trusting people. There will be drama, and squabbles, but a few of these friends will pull through it all. Make sure you know who they are. And for god's sake, focus on your A levels! They are a completely different ball game to GCSE's and you'll need them for primary education. Don't skive or blow them off because of some stupid boy you think you may love, because I know who you're looking at. He may see charming but he's the spawn of Satan and you need to back away.
Anyway, back to your academics. If they (they being AS levels) don't suit you, stick at them. You can change your course at the end of the year (I recommend Buxton's course in Early Years Education), just live for now and do your best.When you If you fail your AS levels, don't you dare sign on to photography because the lecturers can be arseholes. Go straight on to child care at Buxton. I've made some amazing friends on the photography course but the content of the course is boring and will just make you feel like cheap labor. It's one big job that you're not getting paid for with endless hours staring into a computer screen airbrushing an ego inflated model.
Yeah, boys. PLEASE give it another year, let's say October 2014. You will be infatuated with someone. I know this because I'm writing to you from February 2015 and I am still in love with this certain someone. Tom. I can see myself being in love with him for the rest of my life because he genuinely cares for me and loves me the way any girl would want to be loved. Here's a tip for you, introduce yourself when he adds you saying 'erm do I know you?'. It really keeps them wanting more...I joke of course. Try and be a bit more polite than I was, yes he goes to Denstone but he is a 'state school lad at heart'. Appreciate and take note of everything, and I mean EVERYTHING he does for you. Because that is how every man should love his partner. You have a lot to learn about love because you think it's being a trophy to someone. It's far from it, and this is what I've learnt in the best way possible over the past three months. Having first hand experience of love. An experience which I am never going to drop for anything or anyone with the very same person I fell in love with on the 24th of October. Tom. Buy him loads of mods for his e-cig too, he has one at the moment that looks like a mixture between a staff and a surgical instrument.
Focus on your health as well. Work hard but don't strain yourself. Don't put yourself through the same strains I did. Take your thyroxine and fluoxetine (you only have another two years on these!) every day, you won't regret it. Take care of your skin as well, because I'm writing this with a big ass coldsore or whatever on the side of my face. And it hurts. A lot. Lay off the makeup too, get mum to hide it, because those slag lines are gross. Cut down on the black eye-shadow, because in a few months time you're going to be a pro at neutral makeup.
Learn who your friends are too, you're going to be a popular girl and really come out of your shell. Be careful who you tell your story to, some are more curious than caring. Also, a friend is not a friend until they defend you in your absence.
Respect your family. You are going to grow so much and become a very happy person once you follow my amazing guidelines (yeah, you're still extremely stubborn and pompous at eighteen years old). Your family are one of the biggest influences you're going to have. Make the most of every moment you have with them, because they love you dearly and I know you love them as much.
There's not much more advice I can give you. I don't want to wrap you in cotton wool. You need to experience life's hardships alone sometimes, too. You will have your newly discovered friends, and in the certain future, Tom, plus your amazing family, to guide and support you as well. Make sure you have fun and live life to the full. Enjoy music, the seasons, friendships and learn from your mistakes. Apply for Spotify premium too because these ads are stupidly annoying.
Best wishes for your future
18 year old you (Grace, Liv or whatever you want to call yourself)
xx
I'm basically just going to be giving you a lot of spoilers and guidelines in this letter, because let's face it, you need them. I am the eighteen year old you, and you need to read and follow every single paragraph in this letter. It will completely change you for the better. It will also give you the life you really deserve.
So, you're going through your GCSE's at the moment and you think your life is over because a load of old money idiots are calling you names, making memes of you and just being down-right nasty. Put the pills down and let me put things into perspective for you. You are not ugly. I look back to you and regret believing all those comments. Your eyes, your hair, your face. None of it is deformed You are a very pretty girl. You also have it in you to get some amazing marks in your GCSE's, despite what you're going through. I can tell you now, if you take that batch of paracetamol and wash them down with that whisky now, they've all won. You don't want that. Because they're nobodies. Yeah, some of them are models, but I see her Instagram photos everyday now and they haven't aged well. Some of them are good sports players, but think how hard it is to jump from a school team to a professional, famous sports team. Not all of them are going to make it. That's not saying you can go into school on your high horse because some of them will get good jobs. But when they get these good jobs, they will no longer be part of your life. You can move on and have pride in yourself for ignoring their snide remarks. Enjoy your life while you can, there's going to be assholes throughout it. Wherever you go, but I don't want you looking back wishing you'd done stuff but you didn't because you were too scared of what people would say or do. That's not how you live. Because believe me I have many regrets from when I was your age. So I'm putting things right now and doing what I want despite what others say...you should do the same. It's a lot easier than you think.
Love and boys is another big thing for you. I bet you're buzzing to start college, making new friends who know nothing about you. A fresh start. Firstly, be very careful who you associate with. Be friends with the 'wolf pack' but be selective when it comes to trusting people. There will be drama, and squabbles, but a few of these friends will pull through it all. Make sure you know who they are. And for god's sake, focus on your A levels! They are a completely different ball game to GCSE's and you'll need them for primary education. Don't skive or blow them off because of some stupid boy you think you may love, because I know who you're looking at. He may see charming but he's the spawn of Satan and you need to back away.
Anyway, back to your academics. If they (they being AS levels) don't suit you, stick at them. You can change your course at the end of the year (I recommend Buxton's course in Early Years Education), just live for now and do your best.
Yeah, boys. PLEASE give it another year, let's say October 2014. You will be infatuated with someone. I know this because I'm writing to you from February 2015 and I am still in love with this certain someone. Tom. I can see myself being in love with him for the rest of my life because he genuinely cares for me and loves me the way any girl would want to be loved. Here's a tip for you, introduce yourself when he adds you saying 'erm do I know you?'. It really keeps them wanting more...I joke of course. Try and be a bit more polite than I was, yes he goes to Denstone but he is a 'state school lad at heart'. Appreciate and take note of everything, and I mean EVERYTHING he does for you. Because that is how every man should love his partner. You have a lot to learn about love because you think it's being a trophy to someone. It's far from it, and this is what I've learnt in the best way possible over the past three months. Having first hand experience of love. An experience which I am never going to drop for anything or anyone with the very same person I fell in love with on the 24th of October. Tom. Buy him loads of mods for his e-cig too, he has one at the moment that looks like a mixture between a staff and a surgical instrument.
Focus on your health as well. Work hard but don't strain yourself. Don't put yourself through the same strains I did. Take your thyroxine and fluoxetine (you only have another two years on these!) every day, you won't regret it. Take care of your skin as well, because I'm writing this with a big ass coldsore or whatever on the side of my face. And it hurts. A lot. Lay off the makeup too, get mum to hide it, because those slag lines are gross. Cut down on the black eye-shadow, because in a few months time you're going to be a pro at neutral makeup.
Learn who your friends are too, you're going to be a popular girl and really come out of your shell. Be careful who you tell your story to, some are more curious than caring. Also, a friend is not a friend until they defend you in your absence.
Respect your family. You are going to grow so much and become a very happy person once you follow my amazing guidelines (yeah, you're still extremely stubborn and pompous at eighteen years old). Your family are one of the biggest influences you're going to have. Make the most of every moment you have with them, because they love you dearly and I know you love them as much.
There's not much more advice I can give you. I don't want to wrap you in cotton wool. You need to experience life's hardships alone sometimes, too. You will have your newly discovered friends, and in the certain future, Tom, plus your amazing family, to guide and support you as well. Make sure you have fun and live life to the full. Enjoy music, the seasons, friendships and learn from your mistakes. Apply for Spotify premium too because these ads are stupidly annoying.
Best wishes for your future
18 year old you (Grace, Liv or whatever you want to call yourself)
xx
Haha this is brilliant! A great Idea (: had me laughing out loud at parts :P you are a beautiful, kind and caring person xx
ReplyDeleteHaha this is brilliant! A great Idea (: had me laughing out loud at parts :P you are a beautiful, kind and caring person xx
ReplyDeleteThank you gorgeous! You're a handsome, lovely, sensitive person xx
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