Excitement | October Diaries

Over the past few weeks I've had mixed emotions about so many different things. It's all mainly down to the fact that I've hardly had any time to myself to think. My time has been so blocked up by work, college and placement. I seriously take on so much stuff and never think about the implications it can have on my mental state. I've had nightmares about the most futile stuff ever, such as over past arguments I've had and the silliest dramas. 

However, there has been so excitement as well, which is a reward against everything else. I've been thriving on my new course and it's so pleasing to hear I'm meeting all the criteria, as well as having a delightful placement. 

The news also came last week that I could potentially go to university next year, which is exciting but worrying at the same time. On one hand, I'd love to go so I'm not so far behind. By the end of one year on this course, in addition to my diploma in photography, I may have enough points/credits to make it onto a degree course. But, the course I am signing onto, primary education, is believe it or not extremely competitive. I want to have all the experience I can before I put myself forward to something like this. I don't want to embarrass myself and get it wrong. In case teaching isn't what I thought it would be, if I stay on for the two years of the course I will have a qualification in nannying, family intervention, becoming a child minder or even being transferred to a different degree. 

So, with that in mind, I will be visiting many university open days. 

Halloween 2014

Autumn is here too, which is a really happy time for me. Halloween is on it's way, and I still need to get a costume, and hopefully find somewhere to go out, a party or something.

It's also a very important time of year for me, and a very sentimental time as a year ago on the 25th of October it will be a year since Tom asked me to be his girlfriend. So, at some point next week we will be going out to where he asked the question. Alton Towers.

Today was a good day in itself. I had my first placement observation and wasn't absolutely grilled, but told I was doing really well. This was so uplifting for me as it's taken so much practice and experience for me to build up my confidence in working with children, talking to young children and stuff. That sounds really bad considering I've wanted to do it for a while now, but it takes a lot of practice, and you do have to act like you're as mad as a box of frogs sometimes to keep children engaged. I do generally feel anxious in these circumstances where I have to act silly and dance and read stories, because I picture people laughing at me in my head and it's sort of scary. But over the past two weeks it's changed so much and I really couldn't care less if someone did laugh, I love what I do!

Happy Autumn xo